Moments 2

Jealousy

Its going fine. Things are in equilibrium. I have desire for nothing. And then I hear it. 

Someone has just achieved something. I never yearned for it myself. But like a dark cloud, it comes to rest over my head and casts a shadow on my face. Suddenly I find reasons to find him/her guilty of a lot of flaws. I become vindictive attributing faults that I shrugged off earlier. I think he's not really as good as me anyway. So it doesn't matter. I'm still the superior celestial being I was.

And as suddenly as it came, I realize it. 

I'm jealous.

Moments

 Hate.

Its been a long day. Work, cooking, kids and what-not. I don't want to sleep but I have to.  In time, we all go to sleep. 

Like being on a boat rocking lazily on the seas. As if I were washed ashore and someone were shaking me aware. I don't want to but its urgent to come back to the living world. 

I blink very slowly. More time spent on the closed eyelids. 

And then like a shockwave, it hits - the time, breakfast, the rains, deadlines and the day's plans. Eyes wide open and I wake up a different person, forgetting my need to sleep.. just a little more.. I hate this feeling.