Bind Beggar on a Summer Day

Was it not but yesterday…
Rivers of love rendered fertile the soils of my heart
Not a dry patch in once-parched land, my Saviour by me
His love engulfed my being, soothed my soul ‘living waters
Existence I had no more but in Him,
And I knew no doubt, that this I am made for.
Like a new bride I gushed…
In trust and surrender I leant upon my Lord, entirely
I could spend an eternity here… if only I could…
Oh the joy I knew!
As the world vacated my being, leaving nothing
Not even footprints for old-times-sake.
Wherefrom comes this deafening silence now
How oh how did the darkness set in
Where is the voice of my Lord,
the warmth of His reassuring presence
The calm rest of His peace…

Like a man struck blind by a curse I grope in the dark
Desperate, I know not where to search, only Whom.
Tears flow not and my heart is hard
For the one I seek, I am yet to find…

Oh but for one look my Saviour as bestowed on Peter
That I may flee the crowds and weep out my molten heart
Long to sleep in the mighty arms of my Father
But I find Him not in my restless nights…
I once asked Him to come to me in my dreams
That I may not miss His presence even then
But now I have no dreams and if any, He is not there!!!
I seek Him in every glint of love, every act of kindness
Each chiding word and the corners of my ailing heart
But He is not there as I seek…
How was I deceived to turn from the light that led me…
The hand on the plough, whence did I retrieve…
A blind beggar groping, even as the sun shines
This I am reduced to…

For Him I hated the world and turned my back on
Into its wide flung arms, I dare not return
Let no mortal think I will be deceived again
For I have known Him and no less shall satisfy
I seek my Lord… His grace will make me whole
I want to see again the glory of old
My Lord I seek… and none else shall satisfy.